Sunday, September 24, 2006

dont read just ranting


Do you ever feel like that old toy Stretch Armstrong the big rubber man/doll that you could stretch about3 feet long. I know as a young Mom I felt that way physically; each child wanting my attention and never seeming to be able to stretch enough.Now as a mom of older kids with aging parents. I visit my mom in a bone rehab place and she is really cranky, try to run her errands and share her bill paying w/ my one sister when our other eight siblings barely call and the other two in town don’t visit or help.In fact My one sister has lots of problems and after many years of totally messing up she has me getting her benefits and paying her bills and I stretch there because she is not happy ever.My other sister calls and today and says Our Dad who lives out of state is having surgery and I have to call him today. Well I am so stretched out trying to do my family duties, ,church work, dealing w/ my special needs daughter who is only rarely even polite to me that I have nothing left to stretch to call my Dad. I know am a terrible daughter …My father has never called me so when I do call we always have to go through the step Mom or step brother who tell totally different stories than my dad does . He has been sick for many years and I feel like each time I talk to him could be my last so I say all I feel I need to in case it is. My son is getting married in Dec and I can not seem to even enjoy or accomplish all that I have to do for that. I am all stretched out.and I keep forgetting things I need to do Arrgghhh

5 comments:

lovemycottagegarden said...

Hang in there, you are a super duper gal. In fact when I watch you in action I am amazed how you have this special energy to just dig in there and get it done. I hope you do find the time to breathe and observe the beauty of nature around you that can bring you peace even if it is only for 10-15 minutes. Marcia, I admire you, when we do pass each other, (not as often as when I was next door), I enjoy the chats, you are a breath of fresh air.

nikko said...

((((hugs))))

Joyismygoal said...

thanks dears (she says through tears):) sometimes it helps to get it all down in writing and kind words always help!

txmommy said...

{{{{{hugs}}}}and cyber chocolate!
You are awesome, the wedding will be wonderful and you help so many people all the time.

and your DD is wonderful, things will turn out in the end.

maybe we need a lunch out, whenever I can get out and you are free:)

bigsissyB said...

Hey little sis-you are the most precious person. I am sure you know we all have our fair share of "stretchers" in our lives. This is how we grow closer to God. I, too go thru the same dad scenario, so I missed his birthday, Christmas and new years.
I also do try so hard to "do it all" and I think ---where are all the others who "should" be helping carry some of this burden (like the five different parents of the grandkids I am raising).
As different as we seem, please know that I know how burdened you are and that I love and admire you so very much.
If you ever need a sister to talk to, I am only a phone call or email away and would love to offer you any bit of support I can.
I love you with all my heart.