I feel sad that I did something yesterday: I lost my train of thought in the middle of teaching a class I wanted to read a quote because I was not sure I said it correctly so I read what I thought it was and it was the wrong quote(which is not that awful in and of itself) but then I went blank totally blank and tried several others and asked for help but just felt so inadequate-- I usually enjoy speaking and teaching because I learn so much more---but I did not do well and feel sick about it.
I know I had missed 2 nights of good sleep but that is not a good enough excuse -It was interesting the responses I have gotten: the one who know me the very longest and best commiserated w/me-- those who counted on me were disappointed but so kind --Those who know me well and love me warts and all barely noticed and I do not know if there was someone who needed to hear what was in that lesson and didn't get it. To be truthful I did feel the connection of people hearing and getting what I was teaching a couple of times and for that i am grateful but I referred to my error too many times and the only conclusion I can come to is the week before someone told me I did a good job and I had to prove them wrong. So please don't compliment me -- When I told my hubby about it and he asked me why I thought it happened? I said 'I guess I needed humility. I didn't write this for pleas of sympathy --I wanted it written down so I can learn from this humbling experience and move on.
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