Sensory memories

I am doing ok  up and down --I know that it is a normal part of grieving to get teary oft  times-- like  the Potato chip aisle at Walmart - like-when I just hugged my mom's  pillow- smelling a faintly familiar scent - I just did not know that that is who I am --I am a strong woman of great faith who loves the Lord and a woman who gets things done - But I could not send some of my Mothers things to my siblings on my own--- I needed someone there w/ me to tape boxes-- to giggle at the odd task I was doing  -
        I was a bit paralyzed w/ fear (till he landed safely) - when my husband had to disembark 2 fights for the same place in the same day because of mechanical difficulties
-- It was so hard attending another old dear friends funeral this week
and  today I only needed a phone call to distract me so that I locked my keys in my car and had to walk 3 miles home after already exercising..but I am finding out who I am-- I am asking for help --and I will be fine I just didn't know.....Thanks to those who are helping and checking on me

Would you drink Tire Water?

Duck al la orange

Duck al la orange toddler style

I will really miss this sweet smile

and his cute mama when they move very soon

Daddy bravely joined the military and his wife and baby bravely  support him in traveling across country

I know her mama will miss them even more

Ft Worth's Stockyards M&J's visit in August

water tower

visitors center

y'all come  on in

 for the ...art:)

and local color

its a fun throwback in time

We try to take our visitors to the Ft Worth Stockyards it is just down the road from me

and takes you into a cowboy world

I try to torture everyone

equally-making them

try on hats

-whether they

like it

or not

we usually have some fun

and sometimes get GREAT shots

but everyone ends up hearting Texas........

whether for the candy

or cuisine

Empty -- Wordless Wednesday

So I can remember

It has been a heavy week: sorting cleaning and dealing w/ so many memories

old and new

and all the emotions of all ten of us  (the ten children of my Mother).

What a mixed bag because as fun as she was  she was  always in pain

this July

 I think when we   die  we hope that we will be remembered for our efforts and not so much the other things :)I really hope that for myself and i will try to do that for her

Having spent time w/ my siblings I miss them more now as well.

I wish we had not had to do it so quickly but glad for it to be done so quickly too,
 Although i will miss the caring and visiting w/ my Mom
-I would not bring her back to the pain she endured so long

  - and I have that peace the gospel brings that she is peaceful now and that we will meet again

Beautiful and Thoughtful........ my world

some of the Flowers from my Mom's funeral

My brother arranged this beautiful arrangement   from all the 10 children

Special Rainbow

We saw A rainbow yesterday that appeared to be shining down on my mom's apartments and we smiled

My Mom passed away last week there are lots of posts I need to do to remember her and this week